Yet I sit there, trying to find something to say as if I had no simple thoughts that fill my mind at any pulsing of time (having three kids and a husband!). I think I` m simply incapable of indicating details and describing thoughts or feelings or situations so I cling here and there in distant and scattered words as if I was climbing a mountain.This raving though feels as if I was carsick The wandering from page to page does nothing but increase my quarantine.I have to tidy up my brain and find out a good way to make up for the lack of affection which I find to be in itself a discriminatory act. It is painful to constantly need some kind of human exchange and look for it say in a bag.But I definitely have decided that my feeling that I am the victim is only a sign that I love myself too much or think myself too good.So I have to match the idea of me with me
e vertete kjo ideja jote se pse e shohim veten si viktime!
Nuk e di. Kjo me aplikohet mua, e cila, (une) po perpiqem ta stervis veten time qe kur nuk jam e kenaqur me te tjeret te shoh se cfare mund te kem bere vete gabim per ti sjelle punet aty (dmth ketu) ku jane, ne kufinjte e mosrehatit.
nah, don’t do that to yourself. you can change your perspective, you can change your attitude, but at the end of the day, it is always the other people who have wronged people with such a sensitive soul like yours.
at least this is my take in reading your thoughts.
p.s. forgot to tell you i like the new look. congrats.
blete
Ooooohh how soothing to my ego these words are, but I can`t let myself believe them so easily.
Besides I think changing attitude makes a difference at least with ones family.
I remember last week I got out with my son in
the morning and it was pretty cold; as often happens he had forgotten his mittens at home, so I thought that instead of scolding him and tell him how irresponsible he is( thing that unfortunately I often do) I should give him my mittens.
So I did and boy ! he was loveabale and sweet for the rest of the day.
I let my husband read your comment though,
and thanks I appreciate your visits at my blog.