a partial idiot’s guide to Billy

Everything other than love

for the most beautiful God is agony of the spirit,

though it be sugar- eating.

What is agony of the spirit?

To advance toward death

without seizing hold of the Water of Life.
 

RUMI

By (the Token of) Time
Lo! man is in a state of loss,
Save those who believe and do good works,
And exhort one another to truth
And exhort one another to endurance.

Qur`an

But Billy never came. He is the soldier at the feet of my new, my brand new statue of love. He holds the rope but never uncovers it. Place my heart under the doormat,Billy before you leave, my heart hang it like a beehive, my orphan need to press you against my chest, to hold you under my jacket and keep you warm. The building blocks of my pain are in the basket behind the door. The tree that made them grows in my shoulders, your leafy face falls there the sweet chlorophyll smile. I want to wipe your face Billy with both my hands and breathe it in. I fold my fear neatly this bleating rug and smoke it . I ` m tired Billy, do not cut my hands!